MY XANTHELASMA STORY
Photography | Laura Ellen Wright
Yes I am holding my hands up – I USE FACETUNE – Controversial right!? I use it on my selfies for one thing and one thing alone. Actually Whilst I am being honest, I may have used it in the past to alter my body shape (Now I’m talking YEARS ago here guys) which is just ludicrous!
Whilst I would love to be the perfect size 10, I have learnt to embrace my curves and body shape so trust me when I say body altering is not something I’m a fan of now. If you watch my weekly vlogs you may have noticed the blemishes around my eyes and the reason I use this app already.
As I said, I use Facetune for one thing and that’s to slightly smooth underneath my right eye. The reason for this is a skin condition I have which I am ashamed to say, I am embarrassed about – Xanthelasma. To some this may seem like nothing, however for me it’s a big deal.
I can honestly say, I don’t let a lot get me down. Yes I moan about my weight and the odd spot however these are all changeable things and if I really wanted to loose weight I’d be doing it. Spots, I can cover and eat cleaner to avoid them. The Xanthelasma for me is just there. It makes me feel uncomfortable, self conscious and unattractive.
If you have never heard of Xanthelasma before it’s a condition which generally lies around the eye area. It shows in small lumps and are often described as cholesterol or fatty deposits. I have to admit, I am lucky, if you google Xanthelasma the photos online are not pretty. If you have these, the first thing you need to do is go to the doctors and get your cholesterol checked out. Mine was thankfully ok and no one seems to be able to tell me the cause of these unsightly additions to my eyes.
I first heard about Xanthelasma when I visited my optician and he asked if I had recently had my cholesterol level checked. In fact I can’t remember the first time I noticed the lumps. I feel like I have always had them! Looking back through facebook they seemed to develop in my late 20s and then get worse when I hit 30.
The photos below are of my face laid bare, unaltered in any way. They do not show however, how raised the lumps are or how they alter during the day. Make up does not cover them, in fact I think it makes them look worse as does smiling – And I like to do a lot of that!
This week, I am going to visit Louise Thomas at U and Your Skin as I have my first ACP (Advanced Cosmetic Procedure) booked in. After an initial consultation, Louise recommended an ACP treatment (Hopefully I will only need the one) Where she will use a gentle diathermy heat current to oblate the fatty deposits within the skin and breakdown the unsightly lumps under my eye. As you can see I do have a few smaller ones underneath my left eye however the right one is my main concern.
This has not been an easy post for me to write and put out there. I am sure some of you are looking at these pictures and calling me vain. The bottom line is, my eyes make me feel self conscious. I’m working on it by vlogging without make up on, posting this and deleting Facetune. I wanted to share this post because more people than you think have this condition. If a simple ACP treatment can make me feel more comfortable in my own skin, I want to share that possibility with other sufferers.
Of course I shall post an update following on from my treatment with Louise. I am both excited and a little nervous but I know the U and Your Skin family will look after me.